I am not the leader
I am not leading
Cause I am Yours
And You are my leader
You are leading me

You are the reason that I sing.

nasi lemak↗

Hahaha. With sambal↗ some more. No sambal, no nasi lemak heh.
I know, I know. I’m digging my own grave.
Wonder how am I suppose to worship lead without my voice. o_o

Hoho. Charm lo.

I’m trying to keep things in place, walk in the right track with the right pace to complete my task. But no! I’m not. I’m not walking in the right track. I’m slowing down.. and I messed up my things. So frustrated..

I hope this will end soon. I’m tired.. need a break. It makes me miss the school. At least I’ll have more time for myself, more space to breath.. Sigh.

The new layout I’ve mentioned is still on by the way. The whole idea is in my mind already, I just need some time to work it out. Should be able to finish it by the end of this month.. most probably.

Anyway, I finally had my Saturday back last week! It was great but nah, I didn’t go out but stayed at home instead to spend time cleaning up my bedroom (finally after.. months heh), watch tv and surprisingly, internet-less. I had a great day though. *grin* Yesterday was great too, with the girls in Mid Valley. 8 of us watched the Made of Honour. Funny. Touching. Nice. I had fun. We had fun. Nice.

*sleepy* Going to sleep now. Jane.

And I’m just about to quit my part-time job. It kills my should-be-happy-cause-it’s-weekend mood and steals my Saturday for almost half a year already. I need my Saturdays back! Since I’m attending church in Sunday morning, dance lesson after that, and my grandma house at night.. I need my precious Saturdays back. At least I’ll have a day out of the 7 to really, completely, seriously, get some rest.

“Come on, work hard to subsidize the family a little bit mar.” said brother.

Zip up! You who’ve been not working for almost a year and still looking for a job.
My time to take revenge huh muahahaha. I already did my counting. I still can survive from RM120 petrol and another RM100 for my mum, and still have my RM500 saving every month with some extra pocket money too. I can even afford my piano lesson fee starting next month haha. I’m a genius, I know.

So yeah, tomorrow will be my last day working in ULCC.
Going to miss the kids though. Heh.

It’s the same in our life. Most of the time in life, we learn from our mistakes. Sometimes, we may even need to sacrifice something in order to gain something. And we tend to appreciate things more, only after we’ve lose something dear to us.. No pain, no gain. At least from it I learned to see things in God’s way and how to look at things positively. Both good and bad things.

It’s a good phase to remember, don’t you think so? =]

Everyday, Lord, I’ll
Learn to stand upon Your word
And I pray that I
That I might come to know You more
That You would guide me with every single step I take, that
Everyday I can
Be Your light unto the world

Everyday, it’s You I live for
Everyday, I’ll follow after You
Everyday, I’ll walk with You, my Lord

It’s You I live for, everyday.
This song pretty much explained everything. The way I feel now. =]

Anyway, I have the urge to change my layout. Or maybe modify just a lil?
We’ll see. Soon, very soon.

I had a lot of fun pictionary-ing with everyone especially with Dorcas as my partner, Elaine and Sarah, and the last day with Hon Whi, Sue Ann, Jonathan, Lay Yean and Hannah. The “coronation”, “bracelet”, “lungs”, “slippers” and etc will always give us a laugh. xDD I also enjoyed chatting with Elaine in the toilet while we were bathing. Having fun exchanging slippers with Sarah. The GREEN!! team pose was fun! I’m glad the youth enjoyed the games I’ve prepared, especially the word guessing game and the punishment. Lmao. I learnt to be ready to be played back as a game master next time. Lol. I also gained great experience and confidence for being a game master. Daniel is a great dancer by the way. The youth had done an awesome job performing the sketch. Well done guys! *applause* 3 hours taking care of the kids were tiring, but I had fun with them. They were adorable. And Sarah was really very good with the kids. I had a good little chat with Hannah too. I had a great time sitting around with the youth leaders and chat. The sharing time with Samuel, Sarah and Jonathan was great too. We ate a lot of rice, we just need the energy I guess. I enjoyed the snack party and chatting very much. The Rocky, Pringles, peanuts, cheesecake.. I had fun teaching the youth the dance steps for Welcome to this Family and leading the congregation with them. I enjoyed all the worship sessions too. Hopefully I could done a better job worship leading next time. I was glad to see Kenny and Alvin. I missed the time when they were leading the youth. I cried after the sermon while Pastor was praying. I didn’t know why, but my tears just came out like that. This camp allowed me to see and know my church members better. I can’t believe I didn’t really see Jane’s dad in the church before, after so many years. o_o I’m so glad to see the youth’s growing. Everyone was opened and willing to share during the discussion, which seldom happens during Sunday youth. I learnt to appreciate the time spending with each and everyone of them, and the friendship we have. The fact that Dorcas is leaving us soon makes me very sad.. I’m going to ask her out for lunch or dinner whenever I can. I also learnt not to be stubborn in some ways. Thanks Lay Yean for fetching me home too. We had a great conversation in the car.

Last but not lease, I would really like to thank God for the fruitful time at camp. I’ll be regret if I missed out this camp. Though it was tiring, I had tremendous fun. And most importantly, I’ve learnt a lot through out the whole camp. The bonding was great. The activities was great. The fellowship was great. I had a great great awesome time. =]
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There are so many things happened recently. Both good and bad. But first of all, I would like to pray for the people in Si Chuan. Please guide and lead them away from their nightmares Lord. Let them know that there’s still hope, light and a God watching over them. Please give them strength to hold on life, strength to go overcome the pain and never give up, especially those who’ve lost their love ones. May You open our hearts to pray and give them our helping hands. Together we show them our love and support, and let them know that they’re not alone. And Lord, please give them knowledge to rebuild the town. It’ll be a long way, but You’ll be there for them and show them Your love and mercy. Go forward Si Chuan!

Secondly, I would like to thank God for Your blessing as well. Just when I decided to let go a little, just a little, You provided my needs. I’m so grateful Lord. You make me realized that I can and I should let go of my worries and learn how to depend on You. I’m not sure if I’ve Your permission to walk the way I always wanted to, but I’m sure I’ll have You to walk with me, and I’m learning to put You first in whatever I do.

Lastly, I would like to pray for a better day every tomorrow, especially for the people in Si Chuan. Good health for everyone as well.

In Jesus Name I pray,
Amen.