I suppose a new layout should come with a new post? Haha.
It’s been awhile. I almost forgot that I own a blog although it’s actually in my bookmarks toolbar all these while.

Life’s been kinda cruel to me for the past few weeks especially last month. I don’t know where to start but whatever happened, it certainly affected me a lot.. Maybe I’ll blog about it next time but for the time being, I need to study for my finals haha.

I’m tired with my emo layout so I decided to change a brighter one. Looks better right? I’ll blog again later ya, jane. -back to study-

In everything that I do, suddenly seems worth nothing
Losing sight of the reason and the purpose for this whole journey
Missing chances to admire the rainbow which supposed to be pretty

Life itself is a complete mess right here right now
To continue this journey alone I really wonder how
I need faith, I need stillness
I need God, I need Jesus

Stress is reaching it’s maximum level.

It’s only the beginning of the week, but already feels like I don’t have enough time to do everything that needs to be done.

One race after another. This time, a long run given such a short time to finish it, I just don’t know how to endure it anymore. So much courage needed to stand again after falling, so much perseverance needed to continue running. Yet, time and people are not giving me an ease..

Suddenly, I feel so helpless and lonely.

Semester after semester.
One after another..
What have I done wrong?
Why me?

No, I do not need answers.
I just need a way out..
This is way too much for me.
At the moment,

I just can’t take it anymore.

Life is never an easy flat footpath for us to just walk pass. There are rough, rocky, steep, slippery trails, just like life obstacles to hurdle along the way. Although the climb is difficult, there is a promise worth clinging on - the promise of eternity from our faithful God.

Difficulties increase the nearer we get to the goal - Goethe

The peak is the goal, but it’s the climb that brings us near the peak. Seeking God is the goal, but it’s life difficulties that bring us near Jesus. We might slow down and make pauses during our spiritual journey, just like making stops and taking a break during the climb. Life might seems so tough, as the road gets narrower and steeper, that we wanted to just quit and give up. But God wants us to endure the climb. Sometimes, he wants us to take it tree by tree, so it can be Him that enables us, so it can be Him that makes possible in every way of our lives.

During the journey, we couldn’t see the top of the hill. We could only have faith that the top was there and we could get there as long as we didn’t quit. Paul said in Hebrews 11:1 and 6, “Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Without faith it is impossible to please God

..because anyone who come to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him.” Faith is the foundation of our relationship with God. Faith keeps us going. Faith grants us strength. Faith gives us a fighting chance. Our climb will deliver us to the top, as long as we didn’t lose faith.

The climb also reminded me that Christian life, is all about relationships. In Hebrews 10:25, “Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another - and all the more as you see the Day approaching.” We talked, we sang, we encouraged each other during the journey. Even when we were tired and wearied, when the sounds of heavy breathing replaced our conversation, we still hold onto each other silently.

We need each other in life

When we start to lose faith and about to turnaround, we need each other reminding that there is a promise worth to cling on, to see eternity approaching, just like the view from the mountain top, worth every step, every pain. I thank God for every single relationship in my life, that keeps me moving, continuing my climb.

One day, we’ll meet Jesus and tell Him with a big smile that,

We made it!