Saying goodbye to 2009 and welcome 2010, another new beginning.
New year resolution: Probably blog more often? Haha.

Happy New Year eveyone! =)

Life’s been great. I’ve picked myself up off the floor, and things are getting better and better. Too many to write in one post, too many to thank God for. Not all good, but good enough to make my year.

I started my uni fine, didn’t go well in the middle, but ended all right. I suppose. Just one final week and two more papers left to say goodbye to my foundation year. I couldn’t ask for any better nor regret, because I’ve gained a lot through these experiences. Be it good or bad. I’ve grown very much mentally and spiritually with my fellow youths. Physical, horizontally sad to say haha. I’m determine to lose some weight next year, or maybe put on a few healthy pounds. Whichever works best. Moreover, I’m letting myself to improve musically by picking up piano and guitar once more. I’m not giving up so easily this time, and hope it wasn’t too late. Still trying to keep myself motivated.

It’s also kind of amazing how a few of us, one way or another, bumped into forming a band. We got through one audition after another, then made it to perform in TGS annual concert, and now it was over. It felt easy but not as simple. Choosing the right songs, finding a studio, spending time to practice.. It was a lot of fun, great and memorable experiences. In some way, impacted me hard. I believe it wasn’t by chance nor coincidence, but none other than God’s blessing. I’m grateful, and to Him be all the glory. My family couldn’t make it to the concert would be my only regret though.

I just watched New Moon by the way. Somehow, I have to agree with Neil Miller’s review from FSR despite how much I love Edward Cullen and the Twilight series. Perhaps I expected too much, or just too little Edward lol. But in a good way, I wouldn’t be so addicted to it like Twilight, which I still have the songs - Bella’s Lullaby and Flightless Bird American Mouth playing repeatedly, over and over again almost every day. I wished Edward Cullen is a real person, not so much of a vampire wannabe nor Robert Pattinson, but the existence of a dreamy love story. Guess Twilight is addictive to me simply because I love romance.

Other than the above. My cousins were and are getting married one by one, yet both my brothers are still single. 2012 is a great movie, and I’m looking forward to Avatar, Love Happens, Princess and the Frog.. good movies that will eventually eat up my piggy wallet. The business of my mum’s restaurant isn’t running smoothly, but she’s still optimistic about it, thank God for strength and wisdom. My uncle is to undergo a heart bypass surgery tomorrow, please do remember him in prayer, thank you. And last but not least, hope I’ll get over Edward Cullen haha.

I mean, seriously.

.. you take a look around and realize how far you’ve been.

It was a quiet afternoon, and I was home alone. I stopped doing anything, walked out to the balcony, and looked up to the sky. My mind rested, my heartbeat slowed down, then, I started talking to God. It felt like I was talking to an old friend that I’ve lost contact with for a very long time. Emotion came in, and I just started crying.

I feel relieved. I felt as if an enormous weight had been lifted from my shoulders. It took me awhile to realize that I’ve been letting my emotions making a fool out of myself. I’ve been so blinded with my worries, so comfortable inside the pit, falling so deep into self-pity, until I underestimated God’s plan for me, and lost sight of the many things that I can thank God for; people that make me smile, five six meals a day, the faithful God that I left behind but never once give up on me. Just when I take a serious look around and think, then only I realized

my life isn’t that bad anyway.

“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.” Psalm 40:1-2

I can see the light and breathe the fresh air beyond the pit.
Or at least, for the time being.

Two Is Better Than One
by Boys Like Girls

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought hey
You know this could be something
‘Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I’m left with nothing

So maybe it’s true that I can’t live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There’s so much time to figure out the rest of my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything’s okay
And finally now we’re leaving

And I’ve figured out with all that’s said and done
Two is better than one

Falling For You
by Colbie Caillat

I don’t know but I think I maybe falling for you
Dropping so quickly, maybe I should keep this to myself
Wait until I know you better

I am trying not to tell you but I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time just thinking bout you
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m falling for you
I’ve been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don’t know what to do, I think I’m falling for you
I’m falling for you

As I’m standing here and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you and we start to dance
All around us I see nobody
Here in silence it’s just you and me

Oh I just can’t take it, my heart is racing