The consequence of not having enough sleep for the past few days continuously has been activated. Bonus tiredness has been added for my dancing class yesterday too.

I feel like biting people.

Maybe I should get some chocolates or ice-cream on my way home later and hopefully, the excitement of having my first piano class later will fly back.

I’m dragging myself to drive home now. Jane.

Finally, a new layout.

And yes, it’s a pre-made this time. I tried to design a new one but none of them works, so I better gave up before the fifth one. Yes, I’ve four designs in my hand and I’ve no idea why all of them ended unsuitable. So weird. Guess I’m having designer’s block, which is argh, wasted my time.

Anyway, it’s 08.08.08 today! Well.. it was yesterday. I’m sure almost everyone around the world was watching the same thing at the same time - the opening of Olympic 2008 in Beijing, which is AWE-SOME. Trust me, you wouldn’t want to miss the first one and a half hour of the opening but don’t worry, worldwide events always have repeat shows. =]

Besides, I’m glad Dorcas made her way to Lynchburg safely yesterday and received her email. She sounded fine and glad to see God sent so many people around her. I’m so happy for her. I thought I would have cried that night itself, (surely will if I went to the airport though) but God is gracious and granted peace in my heart. Or rather, I knew I must learn to overcome my emo because separation does happen all the time in life. Both long or short, or.. not even a separation? Well, I used to cry after family trips or youth camps.. Emo me, sigh. Maybe I’ll cry this Sunday instead? Haha, who knows.

Can’t wait to feel the Olympic-wave by the way. =]
And waiting impatiently for my order from 268 store. Wee.

Once the Passion Conference ended, I felt blank and I didn’t know why. I thought, maybe the 4 hours just weren’t enough and I didn’t get the answer I want from God?

I was wrong.

In fact, the message from Louie Giglio and the music impacted me so hard, until they spilled out.. It was far more than enough. It was uncontainable, until I couldn’t define how much I felt for Him. I just couldn’t help but to fall in love with this God that is so awesome, more and more. I love Him. I love Jesus, and I want to serve Him more. I want to give Him more. I want Him to use my life to make His Name famous because I know, my life belongs to Him. The moment when He changed my mother’s mind and saved me from abortion, gave me the second chance to be here on earth, I know for sure, my life belongs to Him. Without Him, who am I?

I always have plans for my future and what I want to do next, without direction and much prayer though. But I do put God inside my plans, which is to share the Gospel through my idea career, and I thought it should be okey.

I was wrong again.

They are just my own desires. Putting God inside them is just an excuse to make them appear as if they are parts of God’s plan for me, and making myself feel better. On the other hand, asking and having God to plan and walk with me? Is a whole different story. Just like what Clayton King said, the first principle - You know God’s will by doing it. Not only I should do something for Christ, but to always remind myself asking Him whether is it His will or not, and never stop searching for the right way, His way, the One way.

The second principle - If you pursue God, you will find His will, really hits me. I’ve been always trying hard to pursue my own dream, thinking what should I do or what step should I take in order to archive it, but I never thought about pursuing His dream instead. Therefore, I’ve put my focus more on my own desire than His, which is wrong. I should pursue God, pursue His dream, not mine. Though this is never an easy task, it is a good reminder for each one of us.

God’s will is reveal one step of faith at a time..

.. which is the third and last principle. This is particularly hard for me because I like to plan things, I tend to rush things and I am a perfectionist. I feel insecure if I don’t see the whole picture, so when I tend to rush things, I overlook the little things that God wants me to do before He allows me see the big things, and when I can’t see the whole picture and feel insecure, negative thoughts come in, my life turns miserable, then my faith starts to fade away. It’s life? Nah. It’s me. But that’s why I need Him, I need Jesus, to guide and lead me. The path might not be clear, but faith speaks louder than clarity here, even faith of a mustard seed can make a big difference.

My chains are gone, I’ve been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

This is a wonderful promise from God. Just the amazing grace is enough for us to surrender ourselves to Him, don’t you think so? The message from Louie Giglio really touched my heart. Chris Tomlin and Charlie Hall’s worship opened up my eyes as well. Now I would say, 4 hours were more than enough to change a person’s life. Passion Conference is a life changing experience?

Totally yes.

For there is no one like our God
There is no one like our God
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here

“Yes, Lord. Walking in the way of Your truth, we wait eagerly for You, for Your Name and Your renown are the desire of our souls.” Isaiah 26:8

Your renown is the desire of my soul.

Yes, I’ve a new haircut and I’m very very happy and satisfy about it! x3 Sing “That’s the way aha aha I like it aha aha!”

Firstly, it’s short. Trust me, very short. Secondly, I’ve dyed my first ever red hair. o_o Muahahaha. I’m happy. Very happy. Maybe because there were too many unhappy things happened recently, they pressurized me and made my life miserable. (I was about to write something sad before my haircut) But now, I’ve cut them all away. Wee. I feel refreshing. I’m good. I feel good. =]

And I can’t wait for PASSION tomorrow! OMG yeah!
Hopefully I’ll have tone of pictures in the next post? Hehe. Hopefully. =]