about

She's an ordinary girl with a bunch of weird
ideas. A passionate dreamer and a music lover.
Trying to seize the day and enjoy every second
of her life. Own this little world that composed
by the ears, feelings and instinct..
Welcome to Faye's timeFlies. 10-qifei.

My future? 27Sep07 +8

I’m a planner. I like to plan this and that for my future ALOT.. but to be honest, I do not know exactly which way I should go or pursue. Although I know very well what’s my passion and interest, but I realized they’re all 50:50. They can either make me very successful, or I’m totally dead. You want to gain something? You’ll definitely have to lose something. Agree? At least I do. And why 50:50? Basically because I’m a right-brainer. Lol.

Above all of my other plans, I always planned to study animation in Japan. I don’t consider myself as a very artistic person, but I do LOVE arts very very much. An artistic lover instead? Lol. I love anime and manga, until I thought of drawing one myself. I consider almost everything as a part of art including music, life, a woman’s naked body (don’t think something beyond that please..) and etc. BUT, I do realized that I’m not a very talented artist afterall. There’s no doubt that I can draw, but always lacking of originality which an artist must have, and I’m still searching for it. Moreover, I doubt if I can be a successful one in Malaysia.. or worse still if in Japan - the ruler of animation in the world!! (to me) I think you started to understand what does 50:50 means, especially when I’m not a rich girl. So, studying in Japan isn’t my first choice anymore, neither to be an artist.

It’s really a dream comes true IF my work is my passion, which is music. Again to be mentioned, I just LOVE to sing, I mean ALOT. I love to sing in front of people, especially my friends and the music lovers. Music represents my feelings, my thoughts and my love for God, my family and friends. Wonderful huh? Indeed, it’s amazing. Sometimes, I’ll sing when I’m praying. Instead of opening the Bible, I’ll refer the praise and worship song book sometimes after finished praying, then I’ll start singing again. Lol. I plan to leave Malaysia and pursue my dreams in Taiwan. Since I already have Chinese base, my mum is willing to stay with me there somedays, the living cost there is definitely lower than Japan, and I’ve plenty of choice working there, I know I can still survive without achieving my dreams there. Now, I’m seriously considering staying in Taiwan with my mum in the future. Love the food there btw.<3

If, I mean IF there’s no way for me to leave Malaysia (which is quite impossible) or I found my true love here and tend to get married, then everything will be different. I’ll most probably forget about chasing my dreams and be with my beloved forever. <3 Or I’ll most probably doing odd jobs and freelance for web designing. Or if God has a better way for me, I’ll just have to follow Him. =)

After SPM, I’ll most probably stop furthering my study. Once, I thought of taking foundation courses followed by degree. Now, I just want to study for certificates (most probably for web design) and start working to save money and pay the fees. I’m going to learn guitar and piano after my SPM btw. *giggle*

End of my most-probably-my-future story.

I do cherish you. 18Sep07 +7

Time flies. It’s been 1 year 10 months and 25 days or a total of 696 days already. Each day, my feelings towards him is getting stronger and stronger.. and it seems unstoppable. I love him. Overwhelmingly.

I doubt if anyone could understand how I feel, except God. Sometimes, I’ll ask Him if this is a test.. and why. A test that would allow me to be with him once I passed? Or it’s just a test to teach me how to love him unconditionally without having him as mine? But why must this feelings come so early? Why it doesn’t come only after my SPM or when I’m 20 plus? Why did he and she must be seperated and allow me to give an excuse to myself to love him? I don’t get it.. only God knows it all I guess.

Loving someone quietly and secretly deep down in the heart is hard, especially when things won’t always happen as you wish. But I do believe that everything has its own place and purpose in God’s plans for us. And all I could wish for is him to be happy, because I love him. It’s just.. that simple.

I Do (Cherish)
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Just a thought. 12Sep07 +6

Life is my music, or music is my life? I’m not too sure. Can it be both? Lol.

I like to use songs to represent my feelings and thoughts. I can listen one single song over and over again once it suits my mood that moment, sometimes even tears a little.. or a lot? *hint* You might think that I’m crazy but whether you like it or not, that’s the way I live my life with my passion for music.

I love to sing. I mean ALOT. Those who sit around me knew that, especially Hazel, Hong Sook and Aishah. “I feel like singing.” or “You rise me up~!” are the sign for them to get ready their earplug. *lmao* Just kidding. But I do sing 24-7. *giggle* Gladly most of my friends enjoy my singing. *poke Chi Yin and Jia Ern* I once thought of making a music blog. How? Post a few sentences of song lyrics that represent my mood on each of the post, or record and upload my voice here. Sounds good? Hehe. But the problem is, most of the songs I listen and sing are in Chinese. ^^; So.. never mind, just forget about it. Or maybe next time. Hah.

It’s not weird or surprise that I thought of becoming a singer right? Lol. Well, I do admit that but at the same time, I don’t deny that I’m not a cute or pretty girl. No chance huh? Guess so. But never mind, at lease I get to lead people into worship for the Lord now. *giggle* However, I do plan to do some singing odd jobs next time after my high school. *hint* Join a competition? It’ll be my last option. But I truly regreted for not joining Confucian Idol. First place gets RM300! *sob* Fine.. fine. *sob* Eh? Don’t laugh at me lah. Sometimes daydreams will make a person’s life more colourful. Haha.

Anyway, I’m still going to study animation since the path to the entertainment world is not an easy path to travel. Animation world is not as easy though. >.<

But what to do? I’m the right-brainer after all. Lol.

2 in 1. 10Sep07 +3

There’re so many things happened last two weeks, but whenever I feel like writting them down here, it was either late in the midnight or I wasn’t at home. And when I finally got to sit in front of the computer, I don’t have the mood to blog anymore. Today’s post however, will be a long one as I mentioned in my previous post. Thanks for the comments anyway guys. =)

Time flies. I’m glad that my blog’s still survive and it’s already 1+ years old. Last time, I used to blog for awhile, then stop for a long while, then blog again, then move from blogger, to livejournal, domain, then blogger again.. yadah yadah. This is my oldest and most consistent blog. So cool. *giggle* But the coolest thing is having you guys, my awesome friends and listeners here. We’re getting closer too. *poke Ariane and June* Sometimes, I wish I can write everything down here, but unfortunately I don’t think I can.. well, at lease posts like my little secret and I fell too deep etc are not password protected. Heh. I envy Yvonne and Aiko for being able to blog almost everyday. Sometimes, I just wish I can make my blog to be more interesting like them.. but nah, I know my blog is getting dull and boring.. if only my English can ever be as good as them.. Blah.

Went to Sharon’s father’s memorial service last two wednesday. Didn’t know what to say.. a big hug was the only thing I can do. It is always a sad thing when our beloved ones passed away, and there’s nothing much we can do about it but to keep going. *sigh* The next day however, went to help out in the church to move the things for the Community Family Day to the Cheras Ria apartment’s hall. Discussed a little about the game’s rules with Uncle Bobby and the others. Nothing much. Reached home about 11pm something and waited to see fireworks. (the next day was National Day) What? Don’t have? Boo! Went to bed.

Anyway, woke up quite early in the next day. Just to remind you, my church had a Community Family Day cum 50th Merdeka celebration at Cheras Ria apartment. The youth were to in charge of the game stalls. I myself had one titled Ring a Can. Everything was good especially the weather. We were really tired, but having fun. The Community Family Day was successfully done. So cool. After the clean up, Hon Whi fetched me home. I thought I’ll sleep straight away but nah, I went out again with my family. Where? Giant Hypermarket. Grabbed a lot of stuff and met Mrs. Chan with her family there. Nothing much. Went home and had dinner, then slept early.

After another ordinary weekdays passed by, yesterday was real fun but tired. Guess what? Confucian Idol!? Lol. My school’s choir organized a singing competition and yesterday was the final. I however, didn’t join the competition. Regreted.. but fine. Went to support my friend which then won the first place. Well done Choi. After having lunch with a bunch of friends and danced a little at Time Square (my beloved Ez2D), I then went straight to practice (formerly known as jamming) for tomorrow’s worship service.

Sunday. The worship service was good, but sermon.. a little boring. *sorry Simon* Had our FF (Musical of Friends Forever) practice as usual. Gladly Bing En is back to be with us. Everything was cool, but the practice ended a bit late. Kevin fetched me home after lunch. Around 4pm something, me and my family went to Aunt Irene’s house to watch High School Musical 2. We had a potluck dinner and the food was great. The show started at 7.30pm and finished at 9.30pm. The choreography and songs, soloist and dancers are awesome, but the storyline is boring. Anyway, the night was fun and full. Lol.

So tata, I’ve finished my 2 in 1 = 2 weeks in 1 post. And by the way, I’m too lazy to check my grammar and spellings, please spare me ya. And I hate my computer for acting weird recently. *sigh* Jane.

Music Album 04Sep07 +7

I’ve finally finished uploading my new layout, titled Music Album. Do leave some comments and I hope you’ll like this simple yet elegant (to me) new layout. Anyway, I’ve lost my mood to blog now. I’ll blog again a few days later, and most probably a very long one. Jane.