Time Flies

Your renown is the desire of our souls.

Once the Passion Conference ended, I felt blank and I didn’t know why. I thought, maybe the 4 hours just weren’t enough and I didn’t get the answer I want from God?

I was wrong.

In fact, the message from Louie Giglio and the music impacted me so hard, until they spilled out.. It was far more than enough. It was uncontainable, until I couldn’t define how much I felt for Him. I just couldn’t help but to fall in love with this God that is so awesome, more and more. I love Him. I love Jesus, and I want to serve Him more. I want to give Him more. I want Him to use my life to make His Name famous because I know, my life belongs to Him. The moment when He changed my mother’s mind and saved me from abortion, gave me the second chance to be here on earth, I know for sure, my life belongs to Him. Without Him, who am I?

I always have plans for my future and what I want to do next, without direction and much prayer though. But I do put God inside my plans, which is to share the Gospel through my idea career, and I thought it should be okey.

I was wrong again.

They are just my own desires. Putting God inside them is just an excuse to make them appear as if they are parts of God’s plan for me, and making myself feel better. On the other hand, asking and having God to plan and walk with me? Is a whole different story. Just like what Clayton King said, the first principle - You know God’s will by doing it. Not only I should do something for Christ, but to always remind myself asking Him whether is it His will or not, and never stop searching for the right way, His way, the One way.

The second principle - If you pursue God, you will find His will, really hits me. I’ve been always trying hard to pursue my own dream, thinking what should I do or what step should I take in order to archive it, but I never thought about pursuing His dream instead. Therefore, I’ve put my focus more on my own desire than His, which is wrong. I should pursue God, pursue His dream, not mine. Though this is never an easy task, it is a good reminder for each one of us.

God’s will is reveal one step of faith at a time..

.. which is the third and last principle. This is particularly hard for me because I like to plan things, I tend to rush things and I am a perfectionist. I feel insecure if I don’t see the whole picture, so when I tend to rush things, I overlook the little things that God wants me to do before He allows me see the big things, and when I can’t see the whole picture and feel insecure, negative thoughts come in, my life turns miserable, then my faith starts to fade away. It’s life? Nah. It’s me. But that’s why I need Him, I need Jesus, to guide and lead me. The path might not be clear, but faith speaks louder than clarity here, even faith of a mustard seed can make a big difference.

My chains are gone, I’ve been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

This is a wonderful promise from God. Just the amazing grace is enough for us to surrender ourselves to Him, don’t you think so? The message from Louie Giglio really touched my heart. Chris Tomlin and Charlie Hall’s worship opened up my eyes as well. Now I would say, 4 hours were more than enough to change a person’s life. Passion Conference is a life changing experience?

Totally yes.

For there is no one like our God
There is no one like our God
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here

“Yes, Lord. Walking in the way of Your truth, we wait eagerly for You, for Your Name and Your renown are the desire of our souls.” Isaiah 26:8

Your renown is the desire of my soul.

I love L.

And this movie made me love him more. Gosh. I burst into tears towards the end of the movie, because L is going to die.. No!! 。・゜・(/Д`)・゜・。うわぁぁぁぁん

Ken’ichi Matsuyama is indeed an amazing actor. I can’t explain how great the movie was, you just have to watch it yourself. (click here for more information about the movie) And the funny thing was my brother asked me why am I crying, whereas I wanted to ask him, “Why ain’t you crying?!”. *sob* My dear lovely L.. TДT

My candy hearts.

Love Ya - Take the quiz.
Your candy heart tells us that you don’t need Valentine’s Day at all – you’re romantic 365 days a year. Valentine’s Day is just an extra excuse to show people how much you care about them. You probably make the most of Valentine’s Day even when you’re single. Instead of moping, you wear red, hand out cute cards and candy, and flirt with everyone you meet. You love love, and we love you for it!

Hug Me - Take the quiz.
A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out. Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine’s Day date is a surprise romantic evening that you’ve planned out. Your flirting style is lots of listening and talking, fighting and conflict turns you off. You’re hot because you’re fearless about falling in love.

Cutie Pie - Take the quiz.
You’re so sweet, you’re good enough to eat. Whether it’s your dimples or smile or sparkling personality, people just can’t help but be drawn to your adorableness. You might not be attached to someone this Valentine’s Day, but love certainly is not lacking in your life. People just can’t get enough of you!

Be Mine - Take the quiz.
Be mine? When February comes around, you look forward to all the valentines, roses and candy. You prefer to have that someone special to share the day with.

Anyway, Happy Valentine’s Day everyone! =3

Too much..

我真的搞不清楚我現在的心情。每當我們的關係越來越靠近的時候，我卻會感到越來越傷心。也許，是我越來越害怕才對….害怕有一天，我始終要面對這個殘酷的現實。害怕有一天，我始終要面對他可能一點都不愛我的日子。這一切，就如死亡般的那麼恐怖。。看來，我真的越來越愛他了。我對他的愛，已經深到無法自拔的地步了。為什麼選擇去愛他？有許多朋友都會問我這個問題，又或許你也很想知道這個答案？很抱歉，我只能夠坦白的告訴你，那是我的感覺。怎麼樣的感覺？我真的沒辦法形容給你聽，只有憑你自己去親身體驗，才能夠得到一個完美的答案。

唉～ 我真的真的感覺到很無奈，很無助。。他到底放下她了沒？他到底會不會喜歡我？他到底覺得我怎樣？他到底現在有沒有新的對象？我越想就越多，想到我的腦袋都快要爆炸了！我真的很辛苦……很累了。在這兩年來，我都不知為了他流過多少次的眼淚了。

老爸，我們到底有沒有機會在一起啊？

Locked: Love.