"You won’t realize the distance you’ve walked until"

.. you take a look around and realize how far you’ve been.

It was a quiet afternoon, and I was home alone. I stopped doing anything, walked out to the balcony, and looked up to the sky. My mind rested, my heartbeat slowed down, then, I started talking to God. It felt like I was talking to an old friend that I’ve lost contact with for a very long time. Emotion came in, and I just started crying.

I feel relieved. I felt as if an enormous weight had been lifted from my shoulders. It took me awhile to realize that I’ve been letting my emotions making a fool out of myself. I’ve been so blinded with my worries, so comfortable inside the pit, falling so deep into self-pity, until I underestimated God’s plan for me, and lost sight of the many things that I can thank God for; people that make me smile, five six meals a day, the faithful God that I left behind but never once give up on me. Just when I take a serious look around and think, then only I realized

my life isn’t that bad anyway.

“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.” Psalm 40:1-2

I can see the light and breathe the fresh air beyond the pit.
Or at least, for the time being.