"Balancing between + and -"

Recently, I feel like as if I don’t know how to blog anything happy anymore. So many that I can share, so many that I can recall, yet, I just don’t know where to start. But once, just once something unhappy happened, I can easily put them into words.

Perhaps Aelyn was right. Perhaps pain does leave scars much deeper than happiness can erase. Perhaps painful moment does weigh so much, until it only requires one to overtake our happy times. Or perhaps, those happy times just weren’t happy enough to make a lasting impression like those painful moments do. Perhaps.

Yesterday night, I was trying to blog something pleased. Just the very next second some unwanted incident happened and stopped me, I didn’t know how to continue anymore. I just felt that nowadays, things just keep going on and on, and even sem break is not putting me at ease. But I’m ok. I’m fine. If God intended these things to be happened in my life, I have faith that He’ll bring me through and I can surely bear, because He will never give us more than we can handle.

I’m not giving up yet. I just need a break but not sem break, an emotionally break perhaps. Somehow I rather start my uni soon so that I can keep myself busy and have no time to think too much. I’ve been keeping my emoness to the minimum these days, and I would say that God has really brought me to another level of life within these few months. Both mentally and spiritually. Through family and friends.

Perhaps pain isn’t so bad after all. Perhaps painful moment is meant to be weighed that much, until it only requires one to make us strong enough. Or perhaps, painful moment does make a lasting impression so that we can always remember Jesus, who went through so much more than we can ever fathom.

Still balancing my life. Still staying strong. Still loving God each day.