"Irony of life."

Sometimes, we thought everything is under our control. Our studies, works, skills, money.. But when things go wrong, we tend to blame anyone anything other than ourselves. Friends, family, luck, God or even the food that we ate yesterday. Then we’ll say, “It’s out of my control, I can’t do anything about it. It’s not my fault.” So we’re controlling our lives now? Or we’re being controlled by our lives? I don’t know.. But one thing for sure, He’s got it all under control.

Well, you might think, “Something wrong must be going on in her life.” but nah, I’m good. Just something happened and I’m still yet to adapt the little changes in my life right now. But anyway, I don’t want to make this entry sounds too serious cause “Why so serious?”, said Joker. Just read the dialogues and hopefully, you’ll understand.

Few days ago..

Me: I think I need to change. I think I should sleep and wake up earlier, have a proper quiet time, start counting and saving my money before they disappear to no where.. Em.. I really think so. What do You think, God?
God: …

The next day..

Brother: Hey, I found a job.
Me: Great! And finally.
Brother: So, I need to use the car.
Me: Σ(ﾟдﾟ ;) O ya.. I almost forget about it..
Brother: I still can fetch you in the morning. But we’ll be leaving home at 7am then.
Me: (ﾟдﾟ ;;) OMG.. 7am..
Brother: And I can’t fetch you after work, you have to take bus.
Me: (ﾟдﾟ ;;;) OMGOMG.. I have to take bus..
Brother: And I’ll be working on weekends too. So, no car for you on Sat and Sun.
Me: Σ(ﾟдﾟ ;;;;) OOO-MMM-GGG! (Note: It’s Oh My Gosh, not God)
God: …
Brother: Hey, are you okay?
Me: (ﾟдﾟ ;;;) … * I’m stunned..
Brother: Are you.. angry?
Me: (ﾟдﾟ ;;) … * Still stunned..
Brother: Don’t la angry.
Me: (ﾟдﾟ ;) (ﾟдﾟ ) (ﾟ_ﾟ ) (’_’ ) (´□｀ ) ε=(´｡｀ ) (´_｀ ) ..
Me: I’m not angry. I’m just thinking.. what should I do without the car..

Later in the kitchen..

Me: Die. I think God answered my prayer. Do you know what I mean?
Mum: Aren’t you suppose to be happy?
Me: I know but.. I never thought it’ll be this way and.. I’m not ready for it you know. I’ll surely sleep earlier than before as I’ll be taking bus (trust me, it’s darn tiring taking bus especially after work), and because of that, I can wake up earlier. And since I’ll reach the office an hour earlier (my work starts at 9am), I’ve no excuse to not do my quiet time anymore. (my only excuse = no time)
Mum: Haha. Good for you girl. (￣ー￣)ノ(_ _)
Me: … God, You’re so awesome. (No, I mean it)
God: …

God is always that cool to me. Haha. But anyway, I’m thankful. I’m thankful that my big brother offered to fetch me, so I don’t have to wake up that early. I’m thankful that my dad offered me a ride home, so I wouldn’t have to wait for the bus while it was raining cats and dogs. I’m thankful that when I couldn’t reach my big brother and dad couldn’t fetch me, my mood was so down, my mum suddenly called and told me that my brother was on his way to my office already. So.. yes, I’m thankful to have such a thoughtful, wonderful, but sometimes make you mad, sometimes make you laugh, caring and awesome family.

I’m still surviving without my car, but just started few days ago, wait til next week and see.. I’ll be probably.. dead in the bus.