"Acknowledge my need."
In a distance of two rooms, blocked with a thick wall, I could still hear his voice so clearly. The voice that filled with pride and threat, the voice that hurts, the voice that I fear and only can be heard at night..
Knowing that I should fear nothing but the Lord Himself, this is a difficult test for me. And knowing that this voice will add on pressure to the surrounding, I’ll have to face a harder test ahead of me after this, in fact, in between this, which I’m already facing.
While learning not to ask “Why?” and complain about the unwanted things, I’m learning how to ask “What You want me to learn from this?” and give thanks to the Lord as well. This is never easy, but I’m willing to learn or at least, I try, because I acknowledge that His love and mercy are the biggest promise that we can always depend on, put our trust on. In fact, undeniable,
I need You, Jesus.
In many ways, I find myself relating to this post a lot. I understand where you’re coming from, as I also go through many struggles and find myself trying not to ask “Why?” but rather ask “What can I learn?”
I wish you the best in your times of struggle. I pray that God will watch over you and bless you and give you all of the strength and courage that you need to get through the dark times of your life. I can definitely tell you that God acknowledges your need for him and because he does and because you’ve also come to acknowledge that need yourself, he will never leave your side. He never has and never will. God bless.
I understand your fears and struggles… I used to be the same way. But find confidence in the Lord. Maybe sometimes it’s not always “what do you want me to learn from this?” but “I trust You completely, and I know with all my heart that You will deliver me”.